I am at the exit of the Parc Guëll now (paark-goo way), a park designed
by Gaudí, situated in the hills overlooking Barcelona. The day was
spent enjoying the cooler breezes, reading on the main terrace of the
park that overlooks buildings of a very unique construction. The
designs here may well have inspired the creators of Disneyland. Gaudí
uses many elements of nature’s own designs, resulting in buildings with
lots of curves and interesting textures, several parts reminding one of
a cave, or a mushroom, or some other plant.
Nearby the exit here is a friendly mother cat lying in the breeze, with
her timid children playing around her. How they run for cover when I
approach! As I walk away and come back again, the fuzzy baby who looks
just like its mother is playing with the mom’s tail. The mom looks at
me with closed eyes beneath the sun, and the baby with eyes too big for
its head – half of its body already under the shade of cover. The
cuteness is off the scale.
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Quote from Atlas Shrugged
Here is one of my favorite quotes from Atlas Shrugged, which made me
think of my time and feelings in the museum:
“I wouldn’t want to seek it from a painting. I’d want it real. I’d
take no pride in any hopeless longing. I wouldn’t hold a stillborn
aspiration. I’d want to have it, to make it, to live it. Do you
understand?”
The word bright, by the way, along with dark, have become highly
symbolic of many of my thoughts during this time. I find myself wanting
to use them often in writing.
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In Villanova
Today, Friday, I am in Villanova, with the sounds of teenagers in
bathing suits all around me, my thoughts of freedom and responsibility
filling the moments. The beach is huge, with far fewer people than
Sitges. This is simply a less visited town, though it is larger, and in
some senses offers more than Sitges. It does lack the imposing tower of
the church, and the quaint, small downtown, however. The walkways are
broad, with many benches in the shade, and a cool breeze finds me on
this hot day. An excellent time and place for reading and thought.
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Another moving quote from Atlas Shrugged, in the words of an
industrialist who runs a steel mill:
“I used to watch steel being poured, tons of liquid steel running as I
wanted it to, where I wanted it. And then I’d go to a banquet and I’d
see people who sat trembling in awe before their own gold dishes and
lace tablecloths, as if their dining room were the master and they
were just objects serving it, objects created by their diamond shirt
studs and necklaces, not the other way around.”
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After coming back to Sitges from Villanova, I learned that the girl who
works in the Internet office is a fan of philosophy. She asked to read
my thoughts on freedom, but all I had in my notebook were fragments.
However, as I walked away it was like she had touched a fountain that I
could not – did not want to – stop. The essay at the end of this
letter is the result.
The talent of Gaudí
Now I write on Saturday from the inside of La Sagrada Familia, a huge
basilica designed by Gaudí and begun in his lifetime. It was left
unfinished, leaving an entire wall of the church open to the outside. I
can hear the cars driving by, the sounds of the city’s respiration –
intruding upon the spaces of a church still half-born.
It is a testament to Gaudí’s creative will that others’ hands are now
placing the stones that his would have wanted to. As if his will had
transcended the confines of a particular identity, and now wields a
hundred pairs of hands across the distance of decades. Or maybe the
person of Gaudí was merely a mind in which a light came to dawn, a fire
he enkindled through his will to find beauty in the world, and so
magnificent was its flame that its scattered embers still have yet to
cool.
Which is more true, that one man can change the world, or that there is
only one Man, one you can recognize by His qualities, whatever the face
– and that we each arise to fulfill this Man’s design, once we have
dedicated ourselves to the pursuit of great things. Like mirrors
turning toward the sun, the many lights are one Light; like the drops
yielding to the sea, the many waters are one Being. The will of a man
who sees the whole of earth and the stars as his very own, is that Man
who is capable – whatever the name of the hand or the foot – of
reshaping that earth, of reaching out to those stars, of walking on the
planets and discovering that space and time are his playground. A man
must will to participate in such a destiny, and when he does, He will
enkindle a splendor that others instinctively recognize, and have
yearned to know all their lives.
So as I sit beneath the high pillars of Gaudí’s design, looking up
through cracks at the burning sky, I am seeing the deeds of a single,
joyous Spirit – the human spirit – and know that this cathedral is a
dedication to that spirit, a call to worship, and that my only worthy
response can be to further that Spirit’s wish to come alive – its wish
for the quality and the glory of human nature to continue resounding
throughout the ages.
Freedom and Responsibility
If a person is free to act, what are the consequences of such freedom?
The range of choices is limited, otherwise each moment would be equal to
the next. This limited nature of the present, and the cause of these
limitations, does not effect the freedom to choose from among them.
Thus, even if the number of options were reduced to two, a freedom of
will is assumed to choose between one or the other. In this way freedom
refers to the individual only, and not to the context of his choice.
If it is a free choice, it cannot be constrained, not even by the
individual himself. This is the cause of internal crisis, as described
by Sartre: the fear of one’s inability to predetermine his own choice,
or govern his freedom in any way.
If this is so, there cannot be any form of obligation upon the will.
The will, if it cannot bind itself, cannot be bound. All apparent
honoring of contracts, or observance of laws, must be voluntary and
chosen. The choice not to violate these agreements is no less willful
than the choice to violate them, causing some to prefer to remain
ignorant of the possibility of choosing, and thus emotionally relieved
of their need to make a choice.
If such freedom is universal, then there cannot be any concept of rights
as existing beyond the individual and applying to him from outside. One
cannot owe anything to another, or any such concept that proceeds from a
belief in a self-subsisting set of rights. A debt is something agreed
upon, and the debtor must choose whether he wishes to pay. If he does
not, he has made a choice, and the creditor must accept the consequence
of his own choice in allowing the loan, and now choose his response.
The whole of human behavior, then, is reduced to one dynamic: The free
will and what it desires to choose. It cannot even be weighted in favor
of a determined category of choices. The only way of sabotaging this
foundation of human life is to attempt to remove the possibility of
choice itself, or to cloud the individual’s awareness of it until the
moment of choosing has passed.
One manner of such clouding is to convince the individual that someone
else will make the choice for him if he is patient and waits long enough
– in other words, “Don’t make the choice, it will be made for you.”
Then, when the moment has passed, there must follow an excuse for why
the choice was not made. This structure causes the choice of non-action
always to be made, by leading the individual to believe that the
consequences will not be his fault – rather, that the clouding agency
is willing to absorb the impact of those consequences.
The existence of consequences following choice creates the idea of
responsibility, in that the actor must acknowledge that what results
from his choice is no less right or sane than the world in which he
lived before the choice. When a third party presumes to accept
consequences on the actor’s behalf – provided he allows his choice to
be “bought” and agrees to the contract – then if things do not turn out
well the actor will believe that the world existing after his choice is
not as right or sane as the world before it. He will say that justice
has been violated – if we define justice as assigning to each action
its described consequence. The perceived injustice of the dissatisfied
actor consists in his not having receiving the promised consequence to
his consensual choice.
However, since freedom applies to the instant of choosing, and not to
the consequence, the idea of justice is likewise applied afterwards and
is not inherent to the idea of freedom itself. Even the participation
in a system of justice – a code of law – must be chosen, and cannot be
demanded. This participation is the meaning of social responsibility:
The willingness to accept the consequence of each choice, according to
what the law has defined it should be, as apart from the personal
responsibility of simply recognizing that every choice must have a
consequence.
In a perfectly lawless state there can be no justice, since no law would
be applicable to any choice. The only response to the actor in this
state would be physical law and the subsequent choices of others – or
pure anarchy. He would not be socially responsible at all, and could do
as he wished.
Because such a state can exist in the absence of willful attempts to the
contrary, then social law is constructed, and one’s responsibility to it
must be chosen. Usually this becomes linked to a sense of personal
morality, such that violations are internally punished as well as
socially. However, the existence of reward and punishment apply to the
choice, not to the freedom of choosing. This reward and punishment
creates motivators that may seem to have the power of determining
choice, but such participation by the will must always be voluntary,
lest it fall into the same category as the clouding agency described
above. Such a fear is, in a sense, promising to take the blame for the
consequence of not choosing to violate the law, so that afterward the
individual may state, “I couldn’t do it; I was too afraid.”
Insofar as we rent out our will to these internal and external agencies,
we will find ourselves complaining when they do not deliver, and making
excuses in order to redirect the negative results of our action or
inaction into other channels. This collusion with a scapegoat is a hope
to lessen the necessary pain of failure by spreading it around.
Whether, in fact, it can be “spread around”, or whether the mind somehow
allows for the temporary creation of seemingly external agencies toward
which it may direct the pain of failure – and then drain this feeling
into recesses of the mind where it can be dealt with at longer intervals
– cannot be said, and does not affect the idea that if freedom is not
bound, any attempt to escape that freedom is fictional. What the mind
does to cope with the pain of failure does not change the fact that it
is the individual’s free choice which has allowed it.
The excuses and complaints that occur, from a belief in cooperative
agencies that lessen our degree of freedom, result in a belief that the
world itself has a degree of power to which we are entitled: the
accumulated power of all the wills who seem to cooperate with it. Life
owes us, in effect, as a payback for all the choices we have lent it.
Whether it is other individuals, or groups, or whomever else that owes
us, the belief is there that our just due is coming and should be here
any day now. Each day is does not arrive is irksome. If circumstances
actually worsen, it is downright infuriating. Haven’t we done enough?
At this point, life is thought to be unfair because it hasn’t paid up on
its side of the bargain.
It is easy to see how this feeling comes to be so universal, because we
are born into a situation in which the consequences of failure are so
great that we must form a cooperation between ourselves and our parents,
and then with society. There is nothing unnatural about such
partnerships, so long as they are based on a mutual recognition of the
freedom to choose otherwise. It is only the belief in the possibility
of conceding one’s will, and thus the idea of an imposed obligation that
can be guaranteed, that we find the contorted situation where each side
expects the other to assume responsibility for the condition of his or
her life.
The other kind of partnership, a collaboration of equally free persons,
never deviates from the fact that the life of each is the result of his
own choosing. If one partner defaults on an agreement, he is free to do
so, and now the other must accept the consequences of having trusted in
an individual willing to make such a choice – and must then choose
whether to cancel the agreement, sue, beseech the police, or maintain
the agreement, recognizing the possibility of future betrayal.
In fact, the latter is the only possible relationship, since there is
always a mutual freedom. What the first arrangement – that assumes a
bound will – implies are the futile emotions stemming from the hope
that another’s bound will might free them in certain cases from having
to choose. They are disillusioned in their wish to escape freedom, and
put the blame on the other, still not accepting that they are equally,
at every moment, responsible for the arrangement itself.
Human action, then, falls into three categories, two of them active and
one passive:
The choice to act, and the form of that choice, which must conform
to the context of the choice itself.
The choice not to act, which sometimes requires real effort, also
conforming to context.
The choice to numb the mind to its necessity to choose, believing
that the resulting consequences will be the responsibility of
another.
Considering Hamlet’s great question, “To be or not to be?”, the third
choice follows the negative: It is an attempt at existential suicide,
wanting to be alive yet not having to live. The only difference between
that and death is the continuing experience of perception in the mind of
the escapist.
Many of the tools of society can be misused in support of the escapist’s
cause. For example, the law not to murder is one that people follow
because they do not want to kill others, preferring a world in which
their enemy is allowed to live; or, they prefer the consequences of not
murdering to the consequences of doing so, and so, when meeting others
they intensely dislike, they make the choice not to kill them. Not
because they must, but because they want to, whether directly or
indirectly. Desire is the will’s only motive.
On the other hand, the escapist claims that the law has constrained his
actions, and that he cannot kill because the law prevents him from doing
so. He believes in the law as something greater than himself, and that
somehow this abstract entity can govern his actions. And so, when
someone is killed in society by a murderer, he is incensed, angry, feels
shocked and dismayed, and cried our that an injustice has been done. He
expected the law to prevent others from killing, just as he believes it
prevents him from doing so. And it failed. Who is to blame? Yet,
there is no injustice if the murderer accepts his punishment.
And now, if we say that the will is not entirely free, that it is to
some extent determined – thought by what, in what manner, to what
degree, only the individual could ever know – then what are the
consequences of this idea, and how does it affect our picture of
society?
Firstly, the idea of blame implies that while one person was incapable
of making a free decision, yet another person was, so that the loss of
freedom must relate to the individual, or the individual and his
connection to the act. In order to assign blame the question of who was
free must be decided, and at what times and to what degree. If we blame
anyone, then we assume this capacity, or that someone else has such a
capacity and can inform us.
If person A was not free, and person B was, then the idea of conferred
will is that B acts through the agency of A, and that in the matter of
choice there is only one will involved. Then comes the possibility that
A may face the consequences of B’s action-through-A. Justice demands
that B instead receive those consequences, with blame being the
complaint by which A notifies the deliverer of said consequences to
direct them at B. If the consequences occur immediately, then A must
request reparations from B, and if B does not respond, then A must sue
him, or defame his character such that others will not allow him to use
their will.
When A decides to enter into contract with B, that is one thing; when it
is forced upon A is another. Then A is said to be at the mercy of B’s
good graces, and may lack entirely an executive force to apply to for
restitution. When this happens on a large scale, it is called tyranny.
But how and when is the person’s freedom lost? By internal factors
alone, or can it be imposed? At what point is it resumed, and can the
decision to forgo freedom be reversed mid-way? All of this complexity
rests upon the assumption that somehow the freedom of the will, in
certain cases, can be suspended.
If it can be suspended externally by the force of an idea, then indeed
the abstract idea of a potent law could be true. If by another
individual, then dictators could be said to possess this power. If by
one’s own self, then it would be possible to enter into contracts which
one simply could not violate.
The question, then, is: Can the will be suspended? It seems to be so
when we are asleep, and certainly after death. Is it possible to mimic
the condition of sleep while remaining awake, as though this life were
nothing more than a waking dream?
If we allow this capacity, then human beings must be divided into two
categories: Those with the freedom to choose, unfettered and unbounded,
for whom the association with life is fully voluntary and they answer to
no one but themselves and the consequences they are willing to accept;
and those without freedom, chained and bound, so to speak, whose
association with life is that of a passive observer being carried along
by the current. The first looks to himself in cases both of joy and
sorrow; the latter is in a position to blame or thank life, the degree
of these two reactions being directly related to his expectations of
what life owes him for his complicity.
It might be appropriate to term these two conditions as awake and
asleep, since the one who is asleep cannot properly respond to a
stimulus. Of course, they are only asleep with regard to the domain of
their suspension of will, but in that respect they are determined, and
cannot of themselves respond to any change of circumstance.
Is it possible for the mind to be partially asleep? Asleep only with
respect to specific areas of life? “Asleep” here carries a pejorative
sense, but it does describe the condition.
The above implies that business partners wilfully go to sleep with
regard to their contract, in order to subjugate their will to it as to a
third entity. Then, if one breaks the contract – although how would
seem impossible – then the one who has not may demand the right of
contract, and apply punitive force against the other partner. Yet, if
the will was subjugated to the contract – thus creating the third
entity and the concept of an inviolable right – then how was it broken?
Here we see the contradiction which makes the idea of suspending the
will impossible: That people can and do break their agreements. The law
has no power of control. If A defers to B, then B should receive the
consequences of A’s actions. That is the whole intention of the
deferral. If C also defers to B, then again B agrees to receive those
consequences. Thus A and C are able to make an agreement through B,
such as the citizen and the policeman both holding to the law against
murder. Or let us say that B is a tyrant, who commands the actions of
his citizens A and C. In all these cases, B is to blame, and A and C
can complain to others that they should take up their issue with B.
If this structure is in fact possible through the suspension of will,
then B is said to control the will of A and C, and this permits a
feeling of security for A and C, and of power for B.
And yet, A or C can and do break the contract, as history shows. First,
this should be impossible, or else B does not in fact command, and all
parties are at all times completely free. Second, if A does break the
contract, it is B that deserves the consequences, since he was the
commander. Why, then, does C direct his complaint toward A instead of
at B? If the law can prevent people from murdering one another, rather
than functioning by the mutual agreement of free wills, then when
someone does commit murder our rage should be directed at the law, and
not at the murderer. Even if we suggest that the murderer was free,
this still shows the ineffective nature of the law to govern society,
and people should be angry at it instead. After all, the whole purpose
of deferring the will is to transfer consequences. Why does no one
accept that C may turn around and blame the law for his breach?
If the suspension of will applies to the lawful citizen, who honors the
contract, how can it not also apply to the one who has broken it? If
breakage is possible, no one can trust in the deferral of will, and must
resign themselves to a hideously unfair world in which the deviant
misuse the trust of the law-abiding. Either the contract does not have
the power to govern the will, or there is no such possibility – and we
return again to the initial proposition, that human beings are entirely
free at all times. The existence of “temptation” alone refutes the idea
that the will may be deferred or suspended; instead, all this refers to
a consensual illusion, freely chosen at each moment, and maintained by a
psychological warping of the mind that would seem to make happiness
unachievable.
In sum, it has been said that freedom is absolute within the limitations
of context, and from this it has been shown that there can be no concept
of responsibility which is not at all times willful. Therefore, the
will’s desire is the only determinant of human behavior, and there
exists no basis either for excuse or complaint in the name of some
supra-human right to which it is believed that human beings are obliged
and bound.
